Need a psychological analysis to know myself better and help to identify my future career. Regain my mental strength. Prefer if some one call me after reading below description and my career assessment report. I tried my best to answer considering wha

Package : 499 Assessment is done + waiting for today's call with counsellor.Please read assessment report and below snap shot of my life and reason of concerns.... Hope you won't find it boring Looking forward to here back from my counselor.Back ground : Normal Guy aged 25. Wt. 53

. Height 5' 4''. Dominative nature. Starting 1st till 12th class - always 1st. Maths 100/100 in 12th..state government award. 10th- 82% 12th - 86% (PCM - 80, 90, 100 and Computer 97..but as always english 66) National player in Kho-Kho. In Short schooling was dream run where i was a STAR at home, school and life. Never studied for IIT or entrance much seriously. My coachings were also chosen in such a manner that more focus was on 12th than entrance. So just got 1-2 month preparation post Board exams. I managed to get 4000 rank in U.P tech. Please note, i am not sure but can bet my utilization of those 1-2 months was not so good. I was not focused and not able to decide how to get maximum advantage of things and was confused. I can get a seat in any good private college but due to finance went to local college which was among top-7 in private that time. So NO HOSTEL LIFE. Family and personal decisons are mostly Father dominated at house. He is always peculiar about my grades. We chosen EC as that was top famous branch that time. After1st year i wanted to switch to Coputer science but it didn't happen as after family meet it was decided that Ec guys can get jobs of CS but vice versa does not exist. So finally i am B.tech - Electronics and comm. -2007 pass out , U.P. Tech university. (SRMS CET bareilly). First year was good per my acads. Later, In college managed to be among toppers but lasted among top-(10-15) out of 120. More than studies enjoyed dramatics, dance,paper-presentations. Titled by my friends and faculty "Never to die and hyper active". I was Not much enjoying my course. Exam preparations which used to be over much earlier to exam date till 12th class is not always last moment. Even sometimes not complete. 6th and 7th Sem was placement duration. I was dead sure "MERA TO Ho HIJAYEGA". To my dismay 1st four five companies came and gone and Mr. Akshay Garg was still outside without an interview......interview forget it.....i had not passed a single written even. Percentage was ok at 76. Full disappointed got a chance with Army-SSB and cleared initail rounds.. .. went bangalore ... had many rounds of interview, GDs and got selected for next round. I was 1 of those 16 guys who got selected from 150 guys who were initally selected. I was TOO happy may be because i got selected or may be as many of mine neighbous, Army uncles and train passengers said all those craps of me not getting selected due to my physique. I still remember asking a question to interviewer that " I am not that healthy and bodybuider types will i fit in army"....He smiled " Do not worry, if u got selected finally we will make you to fit... otherwise why we selected you in first round". So cheers. Had good 7 days and was among top-4 out which three were selected finally...to my dismay i was still 4th one. No worries, i was not that into Army. So chill i was happy that i shut the mounts of those Ary uncles. But due no job n am a topper..Finally prepared well for my TCS written and cleared 1st, 2nd , 3rd ,,,,, n finally In. Thank God. Later selected in Nokia seimens as well. It was acompany from my technology but parents asked to join TCS due varios good and bad reasons. But i don't have much points so better go with it. Since i got placed in TCS during 4th year and joining date was in November. So,after college i wanted to go to NCR and work with a BPO for some time. But Fater said No. So "No". Finally, i got a chance to work in a city diploma college as a hardware basics faculty. I enjoyed that time. Teaching students ranging 12th pass to MA in same class and all enjoying and voting me as best teacher was cool. Present : Currently, I am working with TCS since last 3.5 years. Beginning was good...everone was overjoyed with my performance. I was quick learner and onsite, offshore managers were happy and comments started for me as a reliable and potential resourse for onsite in future. Starting second year i get caught in office politics. Leadership changed and i started going off the track. To hell with i never realised as i was still most popular guy. End of 2nd year i realized first time that things went woring and it keep worsening . I was mentally so tensed and disturbed. DEPERSSION In time of need collegues were like to escape saying "You a Champ akshay" and i land up doing things alone or in tension of failure. My manger who used to be my Fan ...now stated saying for any new initiative" we will see" or "i know you wana complete your gaols". What does it mean ..he don't wana let me do it?? Got a CD " Secreat" Motivational CD on positive thinking. Took leave went to home as well. Finally started recovering and started working on my self. Talked to seniors and collegues seems they all still acknowledge my work but not like me. So am alone warrior. More insecurities. More mistakes. And some how ever next 1 year i am just a OK guy from a super star. But i enjoyed annual fest where i had been part of presentatin team and was praised by alomost all the leadership. Now i am not feeling much to work.. just coming to office doisng minimum work I don't want to work. I assist juniors and collegues if they want and can work sitting with them But not feling to take initiatives or doing even normal daily work except some emails or if its like "I HAVE TO DO". To work on my self.. i joined Gym seen improvemnets in 4-5 months then discontinued due to health issues.... Joined CL for MBA... again faculy impressed but by the time of exam i was not regular and was in so called depression estate. But managed 93 percentile in 2009. In 2010 no coaching just test series.... ok ok peparion... got 90%.. Sp Jain call.. not made it .. i can say its my fault i was not organised and to the point in interview. Conclusion: SO, I am confused with my career. In bad shape with my mental state. Negativity regarding my phisiuq if it comes regarding girls so stopped meeting my friends as not geeting much response. Should i stick to IT If yes should i stick as tech guy or try as consultant or manager side . Should i go for MBA in IT, or should i go for finance with marketing as am good at presentations and was good in numbers during studies. Will any other option also there which is good for me like IAS. Should i be in private or govt. sector. If yes what and how. Also i find myself bit alone in office . people appreciate my work, won boss and client appreciations but colleagues do not like me. I have seen this problem in schooling as well where my competitors don't like me but others do become good, very good friends. I was day scholar and no hostel life. I am Not sure but always feel my most decisions were/are taken by my Father, some times i did what i wanted and i got well but i feel even now my father treat me as a kid. Even now most decisions by them. Sometime i do wana do something / take decisions but scared. Feeling my decision making and risk taking appetite gone to zero. I am down with my confidence since last few years and not finding old akshay. Changed name to Akkshay from akshay on last 15th august 2010. I am really worried about the way am going now and want to decide on my career. Too many mood swings. Started going out on weekends with cusion and his frineds. Enjoyed biking lets see how it goes. Need a psychological analysis to know myself better and help to identify my future career. Regain my mental sterength. Not sure.. but i am really feeling Light after writing this. ?

Thanks Maam.It was nice talking to you. really helpful

.I feel i got most of the answers. Just want to summarise things and if required a final call.1.So per discussion its more of my thinking which i created out of my negativity and i need to come out of it.2.No problem in capabilities or any other thing.3.Need to improve: Flexibility, Team skills, involvement in society, news and take participation in hobbies.4. Need to focus : Positivity, Change and MBA Talk to father.5. Please let me know any thing that needs my attention from assessment report.6. Also have you mentioned IISC or IIFT in college list with IIMs, FMS S.P jain , MDI etc.7. Is MBA best option suited and available per our conversation and report or can try else as well?8. Short comment on me ( Negative points as well)9. Do we need discussion on report or a "final word" call?Thanks & regardsAkkshay Garg

Thanks MaamOne more thing in MBA... which branch is better for me a) based on "what i am" b) based on what i want to beMarketing -- due to interest in presentations etc.Finance - good in maths and good for future pocketIT - because i am currently there. Also if possible suggest on some profile for me in each of these. Like strategy, Business development, consultant etc.

...Thanks & RegardsAkkshay Garg

Hi Maam,Thanks !! Am good!!Went out with friends this weekend.. had fun..

..Feeling better..thanks...I keep the take-aways of the call always in my mind... Will call you and take another round of test after few months to see and log my improvementsThanks Again !!RegardsAkkshay Garg